170606 - Mum, tomorrow is Father's Day. I brought him to see the doctor for his check up and to collect his high blood pressure medicine. Dad brought up again his intention toMore... sell 1 lot of his share which I questioned him why. If he needs the money, he can take from me..Why does he need to sell his shares..the discussion just died off. I just dont wish to bring up the issue of money again with him...after knowing that he spend all the money that you left for him for his insurance... I decided to go swimming and went back to Hougang for lunch. Saw him there and he sat down with me and suddenly brought up the subject about selling his share again. I decided to skip the subject because i know that if he sells the shares again, he is going to lend money to other people...out of nowhere, he harped on the subject about me and Ah Di having an affair again..I was literally jumping into the air and shouted at him..Why do you have to always accuse me of something that I did not do !!!!!!!!! I was so upset that i walked off... I just could not believe that he is doing this to me again. I was just out of mind to contemplating resigning my job and just buy a ticket and fly out of Singapore. He is simple so disappointing !!! Aunt called me at night and asked me if I were going to Granny's place for lunch...I just couldn't control myself and blurt out the whole story to her....cos I din want to burden her about what's happening between Dad and me. I went for lunch and just left after that..did not even want to take a look at him...Can you believe it that today he called 5 times just to ask me to sell 2 lot of his shares? Mum, tell me what should I do with him ? Tell me!!

120606-Mum, whereever you are now, I know that you are looking over me and knows what's happening now in my life. I bet you also know about my quarrel with Dad yesterday. He is just simply impossible. He still complains that Ah Di throw away his medicine..and he dont have the money to buy the medicine and you know what..he lost the medical chit form again !! This is the second time that he lost the form !! and now we have to go back to do the test all over again..and this is the third time !!! can you imagine how angry I was with him yesterday !!! I am just so drained out by him...Suddenly the scene of me, Tina, Hock watching when the nurse took out the life support system from you flashes across my mind...I was crying and begging you to wake up, to go travelling with me..to go morning walk with me...but you did not..you just slept...and I saw your heart beat counting down..till it was a straight line..Mum....

050606- So fast...Dumpling festival is over...I remembered last year, I went to visit you with Dad.. Time flies..Its 1 yr 3 months since you left us. The thoughts lingers Mum...the thoughts lingers...